Remember the canister of chips that my mom gave to my son? (The Shark Effect).
Well, I was up in that part of the pantry. You know, the forbidden zone where there’s chocolate, soda, crackers, and marshmallows. It’s hidden and out of the way, but I know it’s there like a spot on my glasses. It calls to me and taunts me. When I’m at my weakest, the pull is so strong, like a siren’s song, that I find myself crashing into the rocks of binge eating. As you may recall, I created a list of food forbidden to me (Did Not Eat Enough Today). I call it my Black List. As suggested by Hope4baby, I also created a Grey List, but I’ll tell you more about that latter. Anyways, all the items in the forbidden zone were on my Black List, including the leftover canister of chips. I decided to give what’s left of it to my son. It belonged to him anyways.
As I held the canister in my hand, I can feel the monster called Desire erupting inside of me. I looked away, afraid that the canister might explode causing chips to fly into my mouth.
A battle to the finish was at stake-
A miniature, devil version of myself said, “Don’t show him the chips! Hide it and eat it all for yourself later. He’ll never remember them. Better you eat them then him. Don’t you want to be a good mom and only give him healthy good food?”
“No!” said the angel version of myself, “A good mom would give him what is rightfully his! He’s underweight and probably needs the extra fat. YOU don’t”
I had to do it quickly. I gave the chips to my son, and busied myself with chores and not looking directly at him, enjoying himself…
“Have some chips for your self!” said the devil. “Teach him the value of sharing.”
“No!” said the angel. “Be a good example!”
My son finished off the bowl. “All done!” he said then placed it in the sink, innocently
The monster crawled back to where ever it came from. For now...
It’s a small victory, but small victories win the war.