Sunday, December 31, 2006


I decided to do a Tarot reading for myself, since its New Years Eve and all. I think my reading talked about my weight loss efforts. I think this was what it said…

There is defeat around my aspirations,
Because I am tempted to give in to weakness
Recently I abandoned my efforts,
Which has lead to a disaster
It appears that I have not learned my lesson
Because of this I will not trust myself
I have a strong sense of failure
And others are too critical of me
I want to tell them that I am succeeding
I’m going to need help to keep motivated

I went to the doctors to check on my acid reflux and they weighed me. 151 lbs. I gained 10 pounds! I’m back to square one.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Acid Reflux and My Unlce's House

My acid reflux is concerning me. I read in the Internet that it can lead to cancer! Yikes! So I started my vacation, vowing that I would avoid problematic foods (chocolate, peppermint, alcohol, caffeine, spicy, fatty, acidic), but I can’t seem to do it. You would think avoiding cancer would be motivation enough. Compounding matters is the fact that I’m at my uncle’s house right now. Granted my aunt is out of town and my culinary cousin is secure at his apartment near campus two hours away. Unfortunately, my aunt took the liberty of well stocking the pantry with sweet treats for our visit, including baked cookies and pies. In addition my uncle’s house is a very stressful place. The walls are thin and they have my room right behind their big screen TV, which is constantly on and constantly in surround sound. I can’t escape it and it’s driving me nuts, so I turn to food for comfort.

Monday, December 11, 2006

I'm Baaaack!

Whew! This last quarter must have been the hardest quarter I've ever had! Fortunately, my blogging before school started helped me with my writing. Normally, I would fret over every word and spend most of the time looking at a black screen. Blogging helped me practice writing with abandonment. Unfortunately, at the end of the quarter, I fizzled out and couldn’t write another word, staring at a blank screen again. It took every ounce of energy I had to squeeze out the last word in my last assignment, but now I’m free. Still feel tied down somewhere…Oh that’s right! I still have the house and kids to take care of! Well, anyway, I’m at a state where I was before I went to school. Now I’m desperately trying to regain what I had and maybe move forward a little bit more. I didn’t hit the ground running. I turned in the paper on Friday and only re-started my exercise routine yesterday. I was going to do aerobics and weight training, but I decided (in mid-aerobics) that I would only do aerobics. Maybe start weight training Wednesday or next week.

This week I have vacation from internship. Since my in-laws are going on their cruise this week, Ly and I decided to also take a vacation. We’re going to Legoland. I’m so excited. We’ll be staying at my uncle’s house, which is 2 hours away from Legoland. I still plan to exercise when I’m there. Normally, my uncle’s house is a dessert food trap. My aunt is really into baking, and, dude, she’s good! Last time was crazy! My cousin, a student at the culinary academy, brought his schoolwork to my uncle’s, chocolate truffles! This time will be different. This time, we’ll be going in the middle of the week, and my culinary cousin lives far away enough from my uncle’s to not come visiting with his latest school work. Additionally, my aunt is up here because she has to attend a funeral, so I don’t have to brave through her yummy desserts.
I fear no one’s opinion! I am knowledgeable, focused, and efficient. I make this priority and build from experience. I do this for my children and myself. Supported by love, I will persevere.