Saturday, September 01, 2007

A Night of Decadence

My sister-in-law Ruth is a general manager at a restaurant, and as family we can eat there for free. A family friend is in town, so they decided to take her to Ruth’s restaurant for a night of decadence. We ordered A LOT for the sheer sake of ordering a lot. I became full after the appetizers, and I did something that I’ve never done before. I asked the waitress to put my food in a to-go box, before it came out. It felt odd doing this and I couldn’t help noticing half the table noticing me. I hate being scrutinized. I don’t like people noticing me doing something out of character, especially in an effort to improve myself, because there might be a day when I fall back to the way I was and they will think, “I knew it”.

So when it came time for dessert, I participated even though I didn’t feel like eating dessert. I also did this just in case I wanted to eat dessert when it did come out. In the end I had too much sugar and felt sick. I also did the standard berating-myself-for-again-falling-under-social-pressure after dinner routine.

4 comments:

John said...

It's because 95% of people trying to lose weight fail. You, my dear and winning (I'm watching and waiting for you to reach goal) and so therefore are going against the 'team' and people are envious of you.

As for berating yourself, don't tell yourself off too much. Everybody goes to a social event and eats too much on some occasions when they are trying to lose weight.

Marshmallow said...

What you did takes incredible strength. I wouldn't have had the strength to do what you did, I'm so in awe of your fantastic decision. And DON'T go berating yourself. That attitude is much more dangerous than all of the sugar in all of the desserts in the world.

Living to Feel Good said...

Don't berate yourself. You are only human, and you have been doing awesome, so one night isn't going to kill you. The fact that you felt sick tells you that your body is doing well with the healthy. Tomorrow is a new day! :)

Sinnasue said...

Taking home food is not a big issue! You show strenght in knowing when to stop. Congratulations! Now work on not caring what people say or think about you. I grew up hearing my mum telling me to not care about what people say as long you are doing what you think is right for you and your situation as those people are not living your life!

I fear no one’s opinion! I am knowledgeable, focused, and efficient. I make this priority and build from experience. I do this for my children and myself. Supported by love, I will persevere.