Sunday, August 27, 2006

My Goal Weight

Ah, numbers! How I hate thee! For those whom share my hatred, I must warn you that this post is heavy with them.

If you’ve been following my blog since the beginning you’ll noticed that my goal weight has changed several times. At first I aimed for 120 lbs, because I had read somewhere that 120 lbs was the upper threshold of the healthy weight range for my height. I had what my research professor called, JGBD (Just-Get-By Disorder). When I started blogging, I wanted to be honest with myself. I realized that the mind tricks I do to maintain my self-esteem and disillusionment was preventing me from losing weight. One of my disillusions was my goal weight. I decided that it made more sense that I aimed for the middle of my healthy range rather than at the very top, so that once I reached it, I can bounce around in my healthy range rather than be fearful that I will gain a pound and automatically be overweight. Being lazy and fearful of numbers, I looked to the Internet to find my new target weight. I found Joanne Larsen's site, which told me that my target weight should be 110. 110! Holy cow! It was scary, but I decided to bite the bullet and place it in my blog. A contract with the rest of the world. This is what I’m trying to achieve. The more I saw that number the more comfortable I felt with achieving it.

Then one day, I was perusing through the Internet, and I happened across a post that Marshmallow placed in her bog about the Asian BMI being smaller than the standard. This frightened me. I told my husband about this and that when I was less than 110 lbs I felt very unhealthy. I only achieved it because I was following a very low calorie diet. I doubt my ability to obtain and maintain it now when age has decreased my metabolism. My husband told me that I should just lose weight until I feel healthy and not worry about the numbers. I wanted to go with what my husband was saying, but I promised myself that I wouldn’t fool myself anymore, so I asked Marshmallow for more information. She led me to an article in Wikipedia that only provided me with the healthy BMI range for Asians, so I had to calculate my target weight myself. I took the number in the exact middle of the healthy range and calculated my target weight using Kiss Guide to Weight Loss. I came up with 115 lbs. The answer surprised me. It was more, not less, than my current target weight which Joanne Larsen specified using the standard healthy range. I looked at other places in the Net and in my book. Joanne Larsen was wrong.

Now, I’m a very happy camper. My goal is closer than I had thought it was. Recalling back, when I was 115 lbs., I felt my absolute healthiest. This goal, I like. Thank you Marshmallow for setting me straight.

Moral of the story: Beware of on-line calculators!


Marshmallow said...

Not a problem, Lily. Glad that you were able to adjust your goal to a more reasonable target :-)

skinnyminny8 said...

hey.. thats the equivalent of 5 lbs weight loss.. way to go ;)

I have to agree with what your husband said, I think its not about weight, its about where you feel comfortable and healthy.

(Obviously carrying too much weight can be unhealthy and being too little is also unhealthy- but within a range for your body shape/ build/ bone structure...) Argh! You get me.. for healthy of sound mind ppl, where they feel best!

Lily T said...

You're absolutely right Skinnyminny8. I just need a quantifiable goal so that I know where I'm trying to go in concrete terms. Aiming for "feeling healthy" is too subjective for me. I don't trust my intuition, because I know I'm capable of tricking myself into thinking that I'm perfectly fine.

PS. instantly losing 5lbs is a great feeling

Kimberly said...

Beware, indeed! I'm almost 6 ft tall and these calculators usually tell me 140-160, which is crazy! If I weighed 140 lbs, I would be skeletal.

Good job on researching and figuring out what you want out of the numbers. I actually love numbers and thrive on them when it comes to weight loss. They map everything out for me :)

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