Saturday, July 29, 2006
Richard Simmons and My Mom
Don't get me wrong. I totally love my mom, but I also think she's the most annoying person in the world. Growing up, she pushed on me the values of good looks and staying thin, which I always thought were too important to her. Her superficiality made me nauseous. Growing up, I remembered the random acts she embarked in to achieve these goals. Her all time favourite workout tape is "Richard Simmons' Sweating to the Oldies". Today, I went to my parents' house so that she can watch the kids while I exercised. I decided to use this tape. I have nothing against Richard Simmons. Actually, I think he's wonderful, considering how he inspires others to workout and eat right. But when I was working out to my mom's tape, I felt like I was selling myself out. I felt like I was trying to emulate my mom whom I am disgusted with. This made me not want to work out as hard. Made me self-conscious as to who was watching me. Made me bad mouth the tape, so I wouldn't be like my mom whom absolutely adored it. When I finished my workout, I let out a sigh of relief. It's over. I no longer have to be my mom. I decided to never workout with this tape ever again. What is it about mothers that they evoke such strong emotions?
I fear no one’s opinion! I am knowledgeable, focused, and efficient. I make this priority and build from experience. I do this for my children and myself. Supported by love, I will persevere.